A sharp knife just stab into my heart...

Today is his birthday...

Been thinking the whole day how to make him happy...

After getting the good news that I going to Paradise Island for my further training, i really really wanted to have this moment with him.

Was still chatting with him in msn...

But didn't reply him...

Was very very hurt and sad after what he said...

I know I'm not good in it.

But I had tried!

For the pass 3 weeks, things are bothering me.

How can I just change in just 3 weeks...

I wanted to live like him, but is very difficult for me to change in just 3 weeks time...

I been struggeling myself, maybe I still not ready yet just like what he said.

He been calling my phone as well, but i refuse to answer.

Because i know i can't talk and will just crying...

My heart had just stab with a knife...

Which I really really never felt this pain before...

Should i be regret to be with him?

I told myself before, whatever happened between me and him, I will never regret!

Because I truely love you...

~Christine@Maldives~

Mizerable days...

Lots to say...

Lots to write...

But I don't feel writing here.

I really really miss Seisyun so much!!!

I really really need them now...

I know is impossible, but guys, I really wish you all are by my side now...

~Christine@Male, Maldives~