Should I or Shouldn't I???

Should I stop everything before things go worse?
I just lost all the feeling...
Should I end it up before I get myself deeper...
I just feel so empty these days...
The stress of report, the stress of exam, and stress being staying in this house...
All this stress just numb all my feeling including the special one...
I thought that this special one might at least support me and give me mentally supporting...
But the special one doesn't help me and even I had lost this feeling...

Moi et la Saint Valentine~!

After 1 year and plus plus...

SEISYUN is back~!

I'm so happy that Yi Che was back from Japan...

At last, Seisyun is reunion~!

And was on the big day~!

Valentine Day~!

First, we meet up at Hartamas Complex...

Thought of having Paddington House of Pancake...

But unfortunately the Paddington House of Pancake restaurant was close down

and new Coffee Bean coming up...

Hish...

Ended up, we just have high tea at this Friends & Coffee corner...

And for dinner, we went to Soho KL's Ole Ole Bali...

Honestly, this the first time I hang out in Valentine and it was really really pack everywhere...

We were putting in waiting list...

But luckily the turn over was fast.

We only waited for about 30 minutes and table was given...

Although the table was given fast enough, but they haven't clear the table...

It took them so long to clean the table, give us menu and take order...

But anyway, I'm glad to hang out wit my best buddies while someone is not with me at this moment..

And I noticed that, until now, all our first, we had not even celebrate any of it...

Someone's Birthday, mine birthday, Valentine Day...

Hopefully we can celebrate the coming special days of ours...

Soho KL

Yi Che & Sho~!


Me, Kei & Son~!

Seisyun~!

Emotional...

9/02/09, Chap Goh Meh...
Suppose be a night where happiness of a family reveal...
But this night this year,
It was different and it gonna change my life forever...

Some problems had happened in my family...
This lead to a big gap between me and my mom.
Ever since 13 years old,
I was not close to neither each of my family member.
During secondary school, every morning I will follow my dad to his office because my class was in th afternoon.
And everyday when I was in form 1-2, I finish in the evening 6.45pm and by the time I'm back home it was almost 8pm...
Since form 3, when I was 15 years old,
I was then move and stay with my granpa in KL.
I only came back to this home in weekend...
This was remained until form 6, 19 years old.
So my college life start, again, I stayed hostel which near to college and the same I only came back to this home during weekend.
Until last year August, my dad bought me a car and wanted me to drive everyday to college and back home.
Well... Although at home, my honestly I don't feel home because it just like my second hostel.
I have nothing to talk to my mom or dad...
Anything happened, the only people I talk to is my friends.

But now... Things go worse...
Is been days we are not talking to each other...
Although my dad stil talk to me.
But I don't feel like talking to neither one of them.
I was so stress enough for my studies...
And now family...
I just going to crack soon...
I just gone so moody and down during this week...
Sorry to my friends that I ignored this week...
Because I really dunno how to control my emotion.