Wish to stay alone...

I miss the days I was so alone in Maldives...
I miss the days I have no worries and live in my own way...
That past 5 months were really memorable...
Good and bad events will always stay in my memory...
And I'm glad I had found my another half...
But ever since I came back...
The level of depression is increasing...
No one seems realise the changes about me...
Because I just cover up myself but occasionally mood swinging...
Telling no one what had ever happened and my feelings, except writing here in my blog, my own space...
I never talk to anyone even my close friends and just keep to myself.


Staying apart from your family can be a good thing whereby conflict will not happened so often...
Bad words are always spreading in the air in just a minute...
As long as is a bad stuff, no matter how far your relative are staying, it will spread to them very soon.
Good things will always come last unless is a ultimate good news to proud of.
Whenever I got any special award or appraisal, I will just keep to myself as well...
Because is useless to tell...


Every family had their own problem...
As an outsider, it is better to keep quiet if you can't help because it will just making things worse.
The situation is getting better and peacefully...
No more scolding, no more shouting and no more conversation...
This house is just a place to stay where no family communication.
I rather it continues like this than scolding and shouting everyday.
But when people know about it and start to interrupt and giving comforts...
It just reflect that the problem never solve and getting worse...
People are thinking that the problem still there and looking for ways to help...
I dunno whether their help do help or not...
But I just feel they just make the situation more tense up.
And the whole world know what happened.



As a daugther to concern about parent filial...
To parent filial, from today onwards, I will just keep quiet, avoid any conflict and stay away.
This is the least I can do from making the situation worse and to parent filial.
And as I know the only thing I can do now is to study hard and get my degree done.
Find a job not in M'sia and leave here...
And go my own way...