Emotional...

9/02/09, Chap Goh Meh...
Suppose be a night where happiness of a family reveal...
But this night this year,
It was different and it gonna change my life forever...

Some problems had happened in my family...
This lead to a big gap between me and my mom.
Ever since 13 years old,
I was not close to neither each of my family member.
During secondary school, every morning I will follow my dad to his office because my class was in th afternoon.
And everyday when I was in form 1-2, I finish in the evening 6.45pm and by the time I'm back home it was almost 8pm...
Since form 3, when I was 15 years old,
I was then move and stay with my granpa in KL.
I only came back to this home in weekend...
This was remained until form 6, 19 years old.
So my college life start, again, I stayed hostel which near to college and the same I only came back to this home during weekend.
Until last year August, my dad bought me a car and wanted me to drive everyday to college and back home.
Well... Although at home, my honestly I don't feel home because it just like my second hostel.
I have nothing to talk to my mom or dad...
Anything happened, the only people I talk to is my friends.

But now... Things go worse...
Is been days we are not talking to each other...
Although my dad stil talk to me.
But I don't feel like talking to neither one of them.
I was so stress enough for my studies...
And now family...
I just going to crack soon...
I just gone so moody and down during this week...
Sorry to my friends that I ignored this week...
Because I really dunno how to control my emotion.